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[Monday, July 5th, 2010] This is not my decision, I am being forced to do things to make others happy. And i just keep silently swallowing it down. All i want to do is cry! you and me are in the sky

[Friday, January 15th, 2010] Last night I had a dream about 2 of my ex boyfriends. I was dating both of them at the same time and they BOTH dumped me. I woke up feeling sad,even though Chris was right next to me and I told him about it,it didn't help at all. I ALWAYS dream about Josh. I don't understand, most of all I don't understand why it still gets me down. I tried to call him. well, because his old house number is burned into my brain. Only to hang up as soon as I hear a voice on the other end. what does this mean!?!?! Who are you really after? Who are you trying to find? Who is that certain someone That’s kept you awake all those nights? You think it's just puzzle pieces But they never fit right If you can’t see who you’re really after Then, baby, you're blind 1 in love with the sea you and me are in the sky

[Friday, December 25th, 2009] I am bitter and I hate the holidays. you and me are in the sky

Wake up so you can get drunk again. [Tuesday, November 10th, 2009] Today I am genuinely happy. I wonder how long this feeling will stay around for-without distracting my sobriety,that is you and me are in the sky

[Wednesday, February 4th, 2009] things are going pretty smooth for me as of late. im working two jobs and saving all my pennies for my car. im proud of myself! let the good times roll. you and me are in the sky

[Sunday, October 5th, 2008] I'm excited to go home. To have my own space for my own things. It's been awhile. I hate sharing...anything. [what was I thinking lastnight?] I guess some male attention is better than none. But who it was from is just beyond ridiculous. Let's be real. NO MORE! you and me are in the sky

[Thursday, October 2nd, 2008] calming down. don't lose touch. you and me are in the sky

[Wednesday, October 1st, 2008] I've never needed you so much. Please,Please be there for me dad. you and me are in the sky

fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck [Monday, September 29th, 2008] Seriously considering suicide. I have nothing and no one left. 2 in love with the sea you and me are in the sky

[Tuesday, September 16th, 2008] Man,someone was on the look out for me today. I was running about 15 mins late to work and this cute little old lady I was talking to on my walk home yesterday just happend to be cruising by. She stopped and asked me if I wanted a ride. I couldn't thank her enough. Thankfully my boss wasn't in so I didn't get in any trouble. What a relief. Although,work was really awful,I fucked up a bunch of shit. Oh well,I'm home& chillin now. Tomorrow! Tomorrow should fantastic. It can't come soon enough. I can't wait to see him. And then Thursday,if I can make it to Tampa,I'm going to the Dali museum with my family& then were all going to lunch. Some good things to look forward to. For now,Mac&cheeeeeeese and my house without A.C. Bah. you and me are in the sky

Karma,Please,Not now. [Wednesday, September 10th, 2008] How can you still feel sad when you tell yourself you're happy? And most of the time you are happy. I don't get it. That feeling in my gut just won't cease. Maybe because I just fucking miss Chris so goddamned much. Fuck. you and me are in the sky

[Tuesday, August 26th, 2008] it keeps getting better. my goal is in reach. im feeling good about things. keeping my head high. almost..maybe,happy? yeah. happy. next step,DIETING! guhhhhhhhhh. piece sliver of cake. ha. you and me are in the sky

the will. [Wednesday, August 13th, 2008] 4 months and counting,I can't wait. you and me are in the sky

[Thursday, August 7th, 2008] this is going to get good. you and me are in the sky

it's not going to happen [Wednesday, July 23rd, 2008] LET IT BE. you and me are in the sky

I [Sunday, July 6th, 2008] Will not run back to you. I promise myself that. Although you are seemingly the only one who gives a shit now a days! In desperate times I will rely on you. I hope you don't let me down,I honestly could'nt take much more of that. Not from you (per say) but, in general. Everyone is a piece of shit. I fucking hate Tampa. I'm drunk. . Boy,you're just a stupid bitch, And girl you're just a NO GOOD DICK. you and me are in the sky

[Sunday, June 22nd, 2008] too bad. you were worth it half the time. you and me are in the sky

[Sunday, June 15th, 2008] I never win. Xanex is terrible to take when you're depressed,It just makes you feel 20 times worse. I hope I feel better in the morning. Today I woke up and slipped my feet into your comfy house shoes, bad idea. I took them off and cried my eyes out. This is not the first time you have made me feel so low,so I don't know why im so suprised. I didn't want you-you made me want you. Im still looking for that kick in the teeth. Catch and Release. you and me are in the sky

[Wednesday, June 11th, 2008] What the fucckkkkkkk. I'm crazy paranoid. However-I know I have the right to be. ...about certain things. I just want this to be the way I fucking pictured. FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK. I'm in love you and me are in the sky

[Sunday, May 11th, 2008] I wish you were just a normal fucking person. I wish we had the relationship that we are supposed to have. You fucking suck. I miss the person you have the potential to be. And that doesn't make any sense. Happy Mother's Day. you and me are in the sky

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